I'm tired. That's all you really need to know but I can elaborate since I'm in a kind of whiney sort of pity me mood and writing is therapeutic.
I'm tired of my husband waking up before the birds. I'm tired of my kids waking up with the birds. I am tired of taking 5 minute showers b/c Lillie has some kind of "accident" while there is shampoo in my hair and only 1/2 of one leg shaved. I am tired of our agents who tell me to keep my house "clean and ready" but yet only 2 people have looked at it in 4 weeks. I am tired of high gas prices that my van likes to eat up. I am tired of Lillie trying to pee standing up like Parker. I am tired of Parker trying to land a triple lutz with a perfect 10 dismount from his bunkbed. I am tired of cleaning up sand and dirt off my already ancient kitchen linoleum. I am tired of the birds building nests in the soffit by Lillie's room and then getting stuck in it and chirping in distress for hours and hours and scaring Lillie half to death at 2am. I am tired. Thankfully, God gives me the strength and energy to get thru each day minimally unscathed.
"...They that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with WINGS AS EAGLES; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." Isaiah 40:31
As tired as I am, I am thankful. I am thankful for each new Spring morning that I can go running and each new evening to fold laundry and catch up on cleaning. I am thankful for my kids who bring me more joy than I ever imagined. I am thankful for Chuckie Cheeses that gives us good clean fun on a rainy day. I am thankful for a husband who works long hours and endures a long commute so I can be home with Parker and Lillie each day. I am thankful for good health and good health insurance when and if we need it. I am thankful for good friends who encourage me and are our family, especially when we don't have any close by. I am thankful for the car shopping carts at Kroger that make grocery shopping so much easier with kids. I am thankful.
My prayer: God,you are so faithful even when I am not. Thank you for the many many blessings in my life. If tiredness is the least of my problems than I am grateful and ashamed for even complaining about it. AMEN.
3 comments:
Yes. . . you do have every right to be tired. That's why God provided those small moments of rest, because He knew that this world and all its messes, challenges, and stresses would wear us out! God gives us strength that allows us to carry on, and how wonderful to be able to call out to a Heavenly Father that can provide that when we need it most! Love you and your beautiful honesty. Phil. 3:12-14
Oh my sweet little Nicole- I so feel for you. I know how satan tries to work on us and wear us down so that we can't be effective for God's kingdom but please know that as a friend and as a mother I think you are so wonderful. Please lean on your friends when you feel tired- we are here to lift you up.
Love you~!
awww.... You guys are the "family" I was talking about. Thanks. I love you both sooo much!!!
Lela, hope you are finding some rest today as you countdown to delivery day and chase after Jovey.
Heather, I hope you find rest as you countdown to takeoff and arrival and delivery (haha)...
Godspeed to you both as my life is dull and uneventful in comparison to yours right now.
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